Two Story Cottage

Restoring the Balance

Dear Friends,

Change is hard but it can be good.   I’ve made done some life-tweaking this fall that has lifted my spirits immensely.  Somehow, I got on this blog train 3 and 1/2 years ago and it was smooth sailing until all of a sudden it wasn’t.  I felt like a speeding bullet about to derail at any second. When I started blogging, I needed an outlet.  I was at home 24/7 with two small children.  My husband worked long hours and this was my answer to keeping my sanity.

I loved it.

Suddenly, I’m a Mom of school-aged children, spending hours in the car taking people places, volunteering, and “killing time” between preschool and big school.   Nap time has been replaced by quiet time where nine times out of ten I’m attempting some sort of vegan allergy-friendly concoction for the boy.  The afternoons are now filled with reading and outdoor play. Blogging has become an early morning or night time activity.

I’m not loving it.

BUT I don’t want to stop.  I do have a couple of “free” mornings each week due to preschool.  I pictured myself using that time for the blog but instead I’ve chosen to invest it in myself.   I was a runner before all of this started and a pretty healthy person.  Over the past three years, blogging has replaced exercise and tipped my mental scales out of balance.  I’ve always believed in moderation,  yet I’m not practicing what I preach.

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I’m proud that I’ve never let it interfere with the kids.  I’m proud that they don’t associate me with a computer; however, I am trying to create a universe where I can blog AND exercise AND maintain relationships with others.

Does that exist?  Maybe.

Running 3 days a week has nearly cured me.  Following along on a “light” version of a year-long Bible class is challenging me in a positive way.  Mumford and Sons and the iPod are a close third for nurturing the soul.

This isn’t about quitting or about finding an answer or solution.  No tips for squeezing the most of the day.  I’m just a girl trying to stay content, be a good mom, and do a little good where I can.

My blog is lean at times, my pictures are fodder for photography failure, and I don’t always have the answers.  I just want you to know that when you land here,  I’m doing my best.

-Erin

 

 

Comments

  1. Hi Erin –
    I know exactly how you feel. I told my husband if he sees me in the morning on the computer before I have worked out, to take it away from me. Our health and family comes first. I want to be an energetic 80 year old, not a crippled one because I lead an inactive life because I was on the computer constantly. :) I took a little break from blogging last week to help my dad. In that time off, I realized all that I have been missing. Down time, time to see friends who could care less about social media, and the joy of just hanging out and catching up with others face to face. I love blogging – it is the best thing I have ever done for myself, but it also can take over your life. Finding the balance and restoring it to live the best life you can is what we should all strive for. Your best is the “bestest” for you and you alone. No one can compare. It sounds like you are on the right path to live happy and are making the time to enjoy the moments that count. :)

  2. Awesome post, Erin. :) My blog keeps going through giant hiatuses. I get stressed because I know I’m not documenting the boys’ lives, and I know that relatives are counting on my blog to feel connected to them. I’ve had to learn to let go of the perfectionism (mainly stop worrying about having awesome pictures in every one) and also let go of trying to please everyone, because I can’t. I think our relatives (and my other readers) would rather know I’m spending quality time taking care of my family and myself rather than that I’m keeping up with a blog but everything else is falling apart.

    I am struggling with the exercising as well. The last couple of days, Dave has been trying to help me by encouraging me and taking care of the boys so I can do it guilt-free. I definitely need his help with it, because otherwise I get sucked into the massive piles of laundry, dirty house, yelling children, clutter everywhere, and to-do list ten miles long.

    I think you’re doing pretty good keeping up with your blog. And if you ever DO need to stop writing it for a while, you know you’ll be doing it for the right reasons, the reasons that are pleasing to God, and that’s all that matters. :)

  3. Oh yes! Been there. Still there. Being real is perfect!
    XO

  4. love you… keep being who you are. :) We all deserve a “reset” at times. Good for you for taking it!

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